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Orbits of the Heart: The Science Behind "Star Rider"
Solar System Fundamentals
The Solar System, our home star system, was formed approximately 4.6 billion years ago from the gravitational collapse of a nebula. Over 99% of its mass eventually concentrated in the Sun, our central star. The remaining material, through the system’s evolutionary processes, gradually formed the eight planets and planetary belts, which serve as the primary destinations for interstellar exploration in my sci-fi novel “Star Rider”.
At the core of the Sun, due to the immense gravitational forces generated by its massive mass, a process of nuclear fusion occurs where vast quantities of protons (hydrogen nuclei) fuse into helium nuclei, releasing high-energy X-rays and gamma rays. These high-energy photons, originating from the Sun’s core, take thousands to as long as 50 million years to reach the Sun’s surface. During this journey, they are gradually converted into visible light and lower-energy radiation before escaping into space. In essence, the entire Solar System’s energy originates from the Sun’s nuclear fusion process.
This brings us to the concept of the “nuclear fusion engine,” which is repeatedly mentioned in the novel. Such an engine operates using technology similar to that of the Sun’s nuclear fusion. This technological level serves as the foundation of the novel’s world. By this era, humanity has begun extensive exploration within the Solar System, constructing numerous satellite cities to harness and utilize energy resources.
Planetary Distances and Planetary Belts
How far are Jupiter and Saturn? Where is the asteroid belt? What about the Kuiper Belt? Why do Ami and Alcon’s missions take years? Let’s break it down.
Solar System Scale
A distance scale diagram illustrates the structure of the Solar System. On this diagram, the leftmost section represents the Sun’s surface. The horizontal axis proportionally displays the distances of the planets from the Sun (though the planet sizes are not to scale). You’ll notice that Mercury, Venus, Earth, and Mars are clustered close together on the left side, marked by red vertical lines. Beyond Mars lies the asteroid belt, which serves as a natural boundary dividing the Solar System into two regions:
- The Inner Solar System: Composed of rocky planets, including Earth, which is the third terrestrial planet from the Sun.
- The Outer Solar System: Beyond the asteroid belt, containing the gas giants—Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, and Neptune.
- The red X-axis on the diagram includes two unit markers:
- 1.5 E8 km – 150 million kilometers, the standard Earth-Sun distance in kilometers.
- AU (Astronomical Unit) – One AU equals the Earth-Sun distance (150 million km).
With this unit in mind, we can estimate distances:
- The asteroid belt is relatively close, making it an ideal first exploration ground for DSF astronauts.
- Jupiter is about 5 AU from the Sun.
- Saturn is about 10 AU from the Sun—10 times the Earth-Sun distance.
- Uranus lies at 20 AU and Neptune at 30 AU.
- Beyond Neptune, at 33 AU, lies the beginning of the Kuiper Belt.
In the novel, Alcon’s DSF3137, equipped with a powerful Category KU-2 engine, travels across space at a safe speed, taking approximately 9 Earth days per AU. Even if traveling in a straight line with no course adjustments, reaching Neptune’s orbit (without even entering the Kuiper Belt) already requires nearly 300 days. This immense scale of time and distance plays a critical role in shaping the narrative of Star Rider.
Planetary Size Comparison
The previous distance diagram was not to scale in terms of planet sizes. A separate diagram illustrating true planetary proportions highlights the vast differences:
The tiny rocky planets—Mercury, Venus, Earth, and Mars—are minuscule compared to the gas giants.
Earth appears strikingly small in contrast to the behemoths like Jupiter and Saturn.
In the novel, Earth is sometimes referred to as the “home planet”. This tiny blue sphere in the vastness of space remains humanity’s cradle.
Asteroids Mining
In the novel, humanity has constructed numerous space cities primarily between Earth and Mars. This region offers an optimal solar distance for habitation but lacks abundant building materials. As a result, the nearby asteroid belt serves as a crucial resource hub for constructing space infrastructure. While the outer Solar System contains massive planets, they are gas giants and unsuitable for human settlement. However, many space cities have also been built on the rocky moons of these gas giants, despite the potential risks posed by asteroid and comet impacts.
According to human technological advancements, metal materials, with their excellent ductility and malleability, are the best engineering materials. So, can such metal materials be obtained from the asteroid belt? --- The answer is: Yes. Instead not all asteroids are suitable for resource extraction. Based on spectral analysis, asteroids fall into three primary categories:
- C-type (Carbonaceous) asteroids – 75% of known asteroids, primarily composed of carbon compounds.
- S-type (Silicaceous) asteroids – 17% of known asteroids, containing iron, magnesium, and silicon.
- M-type (Metallic) asteroids – Around 8% of the total number of asteroids in the asteroid belt, contain nickel and iron, believed to be remnants of planetary cores.
In Star Rider, C-type and S-type asteroid mining is still under research, while M-type asteroids are the primary targets for mining. Ami and Alcon, as exploration pilots, search for these asteroids, marking them with tracking beacons. Once identified, they become company assets, with tug ships towing them to designated mining locations for extraction and processing.
Beyond Neptune, the Kuiper Belt contains numerous celestial bodies, including Pluto, which was demoted to a dwarf planet. Due to its vast distance and high exploration costs, Kuiper Belt expeditions are more akin to territorial claims than profitable ventures. In Star Rider, Alcon is among the first explorers to enter this region, earning the title KU-2 certified pilot.
Lagrange Points
First, an important concept in celestial mechanics is the "Lagrange point." According to Wikipedia, a Lagrange point (also known as a libration point) is one of the five particular solutions to the restricted three-body problem in celestial mechanics.
Simply put, when two massive celestial bodies are in orbital motion, five equilibrium points emerge where smaller celestial bodies can achieve dynamic equilibrium. Many explanations refer to this as a "three-body" solution, but that is not entirely accurate. In the three-body problem, the three masses are usually of similar scale, whereas in the concept of Lagrange points, the focus is on "two massive celestial bodies and one or more much smaller bodies that do not significantly affect the gravitational environment.".
The simplified diagram of Lagrange points looks as follows: within the gravitational and dynamic environment created by two massive celestial bodies, five libration points labeled. These are commonly referred to as L1, L2, L3, L4, and L5. A small celestial body at any of these points can remain relatively "stable" or orbit around the corresponding equilibrium point.
Looking at our solar system, the Sun accounts for 99.86% of the system’s mass, and Jupiter alone is 2.5 times the combined mass of all other planets (see the planetary mass table below, sourced from NASA). We can apply the concept of Lagrange points to explain the motion of asteroids within the Asteroid Belt.
we used a top-down view of the ecliptic plane showing the asteroid belt. If we simplify that diagram, we get the following:
The white ring between Mars and Jupiter represents the Main Asteroid Belt. This asteroid belt is relatively close to the home planet - Earth, just beyond Mars’ orbit (though still over 2 AU away). This is the initial training ground for DSF pilots. However, looking slightly further out along Jupiter’s orbit (Jupiter is marked in the lower-right of the diagram), we find two additional groups of small celestial bodies labeled "Trojan Asteroids." Wait—why are they using Jupiter’s orbit?
These are the Trojan asteroid groups, which share Jupiter’s orbit and reside at L4 and L5. The L4 group was initially called the "The Greek asteroids" , though early naming conventions were inconsistent. As more Trojan asteroids were discovered, a structured naming system emerged, but some naming errors persisted. As a result, some Greek heroes' names appear among the Trojans, and vice versa. Regardless, these groups are located at the Sun-Jupiter L4/L5 Lagrange points, co-orbiting with Jupiter.
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Alcon's Journal # 12
Finally, after leaving the asteroid belt, we will need to perform one last major maneuver to adjust our trajectory to a relatively sparse and safe departure zone. This safe departure zone must allow us to take advantage of the gravitational pull of other planets on our future trajectory, while avoiding the Hilda and Trojan asteroid groups that are located at the Sun-Jupiter Lagrange points.
Mars evaluated the situation and confirmed that we have enough propellant to perform all of these maneuvers. Although Jupiter is not in our path this time, we will still need to avoid the Trojan asteroid group that shares Jupiter's orbit. By the time we reach Jupiter, the Galileo space habitat and the supply station on Amalthea(3th moon of Jupiter) will be quite far away, and there will be a lot of small celestial bodies blocking our view or hiding behind Jupiter, so we may not be able to see it clearly.
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Asteroid Belt Structure and Orbital Mechanics
During Alcon’s first Kuiper Belt expedition, he needed a safe route through the asteroid belt. Mars calculated a trajectory to avoid dense asteroid clusters. This brings us to another asteroid group—the Hilda asteroids. What are these?
Looking again at the more detailed ecliptic plane map from the previous chapter, you are now familiar with the white main asteroid belt and the green Trojan/Greek asteroids. The orange regions represent the Hilda asteroids. They form a triangular pattern—why?
The concept of Lagrange points appears multiple times in the novel. This celestial mechanics model explains many behaviors of satellites and asteroids and serves as a mathematical foundation for interstellar travel and space station construction.
Given our understanding of Lagrange points, we know there are Trojan and Greek asteroids corresponding to the Lagrange points L4 and L5 in the Sun-Jupiter orbit. But what about the asteroids positioned directly opposite Jupiter—could they be at L3?
Yes! The equilibrium points of the Hilda asteroids lie at L3, L4, and L5. Unlike the Trojan group, which shares Jupiter’s orbit, Hilda asteroids are located slightly inward. Their triangular distribution is dynamically stable. While each asteroid follows its own orbit, collectively, they maintain a stable triangular formation. Scientists have calculated the ideal orbits of the Hilda asteroids, as depicted below:
(Note: Orange = Sun; Blue = Jupiter; Black and Red = Orbits of two asteroids with eccentricities of 0.310 and 0.211, respectively.)
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Alcon's Journal # 21
After departing from Galileo#1, we reached the Amalthea supply station—an advanced space platform located on Amalthea itself. This station had a unique feature: a long collection tube that extended into the atmosphere of Jupiter. It was connected to a modified asteroid at Lagrange point L2 of Amalthea, serving as the station's gateway and flight control center. This supply station played a crucial role as the primary hub for humans venturing towards the outer regions of our solar system. In the future, with the establishment of the Uranus supply station, it was expected that humans would embark on exploring and potentially traversing the outer Oort Cloud.
Alcon's Journal # 31
The temperature outside the protective hull of 3137 plunges below minus 200 degrees Celsius. Life here feels delicate and fragile. Due to the abundance of asteroids near Neptune's Lagrange points, most exploration spacecraft steer clear of this region or navigate cautiously at low speeds. I find myself as the sole explorer in this vast expanse.
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An interesting real-world example: the recently launched James Webb Space Telescope (JWST) orbits at the Sun-Earth L2 Lagrange point. This location allows JWST to maintain a stable orbit while staying aligned with Earth for data transmission. Additionally, it remains shielded from direct sunlight, enabling its infrared instruments to operate at near-absolute zero temperatures for optimal deep-space observations. L2 was the ideal choice. For NASA’s orbital details, click here: https://webb.nasa.gov/content/about/orbit.html
Orbital Resonance
Orbital resonance is an effect in celestial mechanics where orbiting bodies exert periodic gravitational influences on each other when their orbital periods form a simple integer ratio. The concept is analogous to pushing a child on a swing—both the orbital motion and the swinging have a natural frequency, and when an external force is applied periodically in sync with this frequency, the cumulative effect can either amplify or disrupt the motion. Orbital resonance significantly enhances gravitational interactions between celestial bodies, allowing them to alter or constrain each other’s orbits.
In celestial mechanics, this translates to either a perfectly stable synchronized orbit between two bodies or the destruction of one body's orbit. In most cases involving asteroids, the latter scenario occurs—their orbits are disrupted, causing them to be ejected from their original paths or cleared out, a phenomenon known as “clearing the neighbourhood” or “dynamical dominance”.
Kirkwood Gaps and the Asteroid Belt
In Star Rider, when Alcon first travels to the Kuiper Belt, he must pass through the asteroid belt, where the term Kirkwood Gaps appears:
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Alcon's Journal # 12
Even though we were traveling at a maximum speed of 150,000 kilometers per hour during our last mission, the new engine we installed can now reach speeds of up to 700,000 kilometers per hour. However, maintaining maximum speed through the asteroid belt is not wise, so 3137 will only accelerate in the Kirkwood gap, a relatively sparse region of the asteroid belt that is in resonance with Jupiter's orbit. Whenever we leave the Kirkwood gap and enter an area with a higher concentration of asteroids, we will need to slow down.
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A chart of the distribution of asteroid semimajor axes, showing the four most prominent Kirkwood gaps and a possible division into inner, middle and outer main-belt asteroids:
The principle of orbital resonance disrupting asteroid orbits also applies to planetary ring systems, such as the gaps within Saturn’s rings, where resonances have cleared out regions of dust and debris.
Stable Resonances - Laplace Resonance
While resonance can lead to orbital destruction, it can also result in stable orbital configurations. A notable example is the Laplace Resonance among Jupiter’s three moons—Io, Europa, and Ganymede—which have established a stable resonant pattern in their orbits. The following animation illustrates this phenomenon:
Animation of Laplace Resonance:
Gravity Assist - The Slingshot Maneuver
Since gravitational resonance occurs due to a massive planet’s influence on nearby smaller celestial bodies, it also affects passing spacecraft. This principle forms the basis of the gravity assist (or gravitational slingshot) maneuver, which allows spacecraft to gain or lose velocity by utilizing a planet’s gravitational field.
In Star Rider, Alcon explicitly references this maneuver:
In Alcon’s Journal #12, he describes using Saturn for a gravity assist acceleration toward the Kuiper Belt.
In Alcon’s Journal #14, he uses Jupiter for a gravity assist deceleration to reach Galileo I space station, a space station orbiting Jupiter.
The following animation illustrates the concept of gravity assist acceleration which is used by Voyager #1:
During this process, the most efficient acceleration occurs when propulsion is applied at the velocity peak. This effect is known as the Oberth Effect, which Alcon describes as follows:
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Alcon's Journal # 12
I put my hand with the bracelet on it on the window, and Mars played some ambient music. I lost track of time as we flew by Saturn, and as the ship began to vibrate, Mars increased the engine thrust. We had now departed from the gravity assist trajectory.
Farewell, Saturn, dear father and mother. As we journey onwards, I shall carry you with me as we soar through the stars…
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The following animation illustrates gravity assist deceleration (Scenario #d):
Interstellar exploration in the novel frequently employs gravity assist techniques, as they are essential for interplanetary travel. These maneuvers enable spacecraft to conserve vast amounts of fuel, making them a standard practice. Recognizing the cost-saving benefits, the Deep Space Frontier (DSF) command center immediately approved Alcon and Mars’ request for the maneuver:
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Alcon's Journal # 14
With the saved propellant, we can approach Jupiter more closely and save the company money. Moreover, the additional time required occupies my vacation time. The DSF control center almost instantly agrees. Mars shows me the operation permit of the DSF on one screen and makes a face at me on the other screen, saying, "This is the win-win game I have learned."
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Tidal Locking
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Alcon's Journal # 18
I looked up at Jupiter hanging in the sky, partly illuminated by the sun like a huge crescent moon that was colorful and constantly changing. Due to gravitational locking, Jupiter appeared fixed in this location from the perspective of the greenhouse's position, but the shadows and bright spots on its surface changed continuously as time passed, depending on the angle at which the sun shone on it. I took off my parents' bracelet from my left hand and put it on my right, then continued to hug Ami tightly from behind.
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Tidal locking (also known as synchronous rotation or captured rotation) is a gravitational effect that causes a celestial body to always show the same face to the object it orbits. For example, the Moon is tidally locked to the Earth, meaning we always see the same side of it.
A tidally locked body takes the same amount of time to rotate once on its axis as it does to complete one orbit around its companion. This synchronous rotation causes one hemisphere to remain perpetually facing the partner body. Typically, only the smaller body—such as a moon—becomes tidally locked to a larger planet. However, if two celestial bodies are similar in size and mass, mutual tidal locking can occur, as seen with Pluto and Charon.
The tidal force or tide-generating force is the difference in gravitational attraction between different points in a gravitational field, causing bodies to be pulled unevenly and as a result are being stretched towards the attraction. It results in shape deformations due to mutual gravitational attraction. On Earth, this effect is most visibly seen in ocean tides, though the solid ground also experiences slight bulging. For the Moon, these forces have caused it to become locked with one hemisphere permanently facing Earth. Jupiter’s moon Europa is similarly locked, always showing the same side to Jupiter. Meanwhile, tidal heating occurs through the tidal friction processes: orbital and rotational energy is dissipated as heat in either (or both) the surface ocean or interior of a planet or moon. Due to tidal heating, Europa's interior remains relatively warm, possibly supporting a subsurface ocean. This concept is reflected in Star Rider, where Alcon and Ami dive into Europa's ocean for an adventure.
Warp Drive and Gravitational Wave Detectors
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Alcon's Journal # 8
This famous gravitational wave detection system has been in operation and continuously observing for more than 30 years before being retired. The currently studied curvature propulsion is based on the theory and observation results of this system. According to predictions, it will take more than a decade for the available curvature engines to appear. LISA has been replaced by two sets of equilateral triangle gravitational disturbance detection systems, which are larger and more accurate and use heliocentric orbits. These two sets of equilateral triangles form a huge hexagonal system array named "Beacon I" and "Beacon II". In addition to gravitational disturbance detection, this huge heliocentric system is also used for information relay among various spacecraft, space habitats, and the home planet within and beyond the solar system.
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Gravitational Wave Detectors - LISA and Beacon I/II
Gravitational waves and warp drive are often related. Let's first explore gravitational wave detection. The principle behind these detectors is similar to the famous Michelson-Morley experiment, where a single beam of light is split into two perpendicular beams, reflected back, and then recombined to create an interference pattern. If the distances in both directions remain unchanged, the interference pattern remains stable. However, if space itself is distorted due to a passing gravitational wave, a phase shift occurs, causing detectable interference.
The first confirmed detection of gravitational waves created a scientific sensation a few years ago. The equipment used was the Laser Interferometer Gravitational-Wave Observatory (LIGO), a large-scale physics experiment and astronomical observatory. LIGO consists of two laser interferometers—one in Hanford, Washington, and the other in Livingston, Louisiana. By comparing data from both sites, researchers significantly reduce the risk of false detections. These interferometers are incredibly sensitive, able to detect minute distortions as small as one-ten-thousandth of a proton’s charge diameter.
The Laser Interferometer Space Antenna (LISA) is another gravitational wave detection project, initially a collaboration between NASA and the European Space Agency (ESA). Due to funding issues, NASA withdrew in 2011, leading ESA to revise the mission and rename it the Evolved Laser Interferometer Space Antenna (eLISA) in 2013. Unlike LIGO, which is Earth-based, LISA consists of a vast equilateral triangle of spacecraft following Earth's orbit, with each side spanning five million kilometers.
LISA is expected to become operational after 2030. In Star Rider, this system has already been retired and replaced by two larger heliocentric equilateral triangles forming a hexagonal detection network. With numerous spacecraft scattered throughout the solar system, some inevitably end up blocked from Earth by the Sun. Thus, this new system serves as both a gravitational wave observatory and a solar system-wide communication relay, akin to ancient China's beacon towers—hence the names Beacon I and Beacon II.
Fusion engine / Propellant-Based Propulsion
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Alcon's Journal # 13
For a vessel like the 3137, which needed to perform exploration missions involving frequent changes in trajectory, acceleration, and deceleration, neither of these futuristic technologies could be used. Instead, we relied on the preliminary practicality of controlled nuclear fusion and the well-established propellant propulsion technology. The gaseous giant planets in the outer solar system, primarily composed of hydrogen and helium, served as excellent materials for fusion engines and a source of propellant. Jupiter and Uranus became our supply stations.
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Fusion energy itself isn’t a new concept—the Sun is a massive fusion reactor. Humanity demonstrated nuclear fusion upon detonating the hydrogen bomb, but achieving controlled fusion remains a significant challenge. The most promising approaches involve Inertial confinement fusion (ICF) and magnetic confinement fusion (MCF), though current technology can sustain controlled fusion reactions only for a few seconds or minutes. Recent breakthroughs have extended this duration beyond 1000 seconds, marking a crucial step toward viable fusion power.
For spacecraft propulsion, fusion engines typically use plasma propulsion, where high-temperature plasma is expelled to generate thrust. However, in Star Rider, DSF3137 frequently maneuvers, requiring significant thrust. Plasma-based propulsion, while fast, produces relatively low thrust. Thus, transferring fusion-generated energy into traditional propellant-based thrust would be more effective. Consequently, in the story, the crew often discusses replenishing propellant rather than fuel, as fusion fuel consumption is minimal compared to propellant mass.
Comet Orbits
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Alcon's Journal # 31
During my exploration, I caught sight of another enigmatic comet, yet to be identified. Mars diligently calculated its orbital period to be approximately 12,000 years, given its current trajectory and velocity. Its tail, still indistinct, awaits further clarity. As it ventures beyond the confines of the Kuiper Belt and approaches the inner reaches of the solar system, the comet's material rapidly evaporates, stretching its tail into a resplendent display of luminosity. Perhaps, back on Earth, humans will marvel at its ethereal beauty, unaware that its existence is fleeting. Despite its extended orbital cycle, this celestial wanderer may fade away before it can fulfill its destined lifespan.
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As of late 2014, there were 314 officially numbered periodic comets in the solar system. However, unnumbered comets remain poorly documented. Cometary orbits vary widely, ranging from a few years to several million years. Short-period comets originate from the Kuiper Belt, while long-period comets are believed to come from the Oort Cloud. Some comets theoretically have periodic orbits but never complete them due to solar evaporation.
One noteworthy example is Comet 109P/Swift-Tuttle, which has a roughly 133-year orbit. Predictive calculations indicate:
- In 2126, it will pass 0.153 AU from Earth.
- In 2261, it will pass 0.147 AU from Earth.
- In 3044, it may pass as close as 0.011 AU, potentially resulting in an Earth impact.
Cassini-Huygens Saturn Exploration Mission
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Alcon's Journal # 12
After a 20-year exploration mission, Huygens eventually fell silent on Saturn's moon, Titan, while Cassini plunged into Saturn's atmosphere as planned, completing its final observations and self-destruction mission on September 15, 2017, Earth time. As Cassini burned up while passing through Saturn's sky, lined with its massive rings, its story was permanently written into the history of space exploration, even though humans could not witness it with their own eyes.
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The Cassini-Huygens mission was a flagship-class space probe sent to explore the Saturnian system, a collaborative project between NASA (National Aeronautics and Space Administration), ESA (European Space Agency), and ASI (Italian Space Agency).
The mission was divided into two main components: Cassini, the orbiter that studied Saturn and its moons, and Huygens, the lander that descended onto Titan, Saturn’s largest moon. The two probes were launched together aboard a Titan IVB rocket on October 15, 1997, and arrived at Saturn in early July 2004. The Huygens probe separated from Cassini on December 25, 2004, successfully landing in the Adiri region of Titan on January 14, 2005. It became the first probe to land on a celestial body in the outer solar system, transmitting data from the surface.
Cassini, meanwhile, continued its mission, orbiting Saturn for over 13 years before finally executing its planned Grand Finale. On September 15, 2017, following mission directives, Cassini plunged into Saturn’s atmosphere, where it burned up, bringing the mission to an end.
Watch a simulation of Cassini's final descent into Saturn's atmosphere (3:55 total length). The final approach begins at 2:45 - https://youtu.be/68vxYRAony8
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*** Link to "Star Rider": https://www.wattpad.com/story/342470732-star-rider
Monday, December 9, 2024
Rooted (靈囚) - English Version
Light! A beam of light!
I look toward the light, only to suddenly realize I can sense its position but cannot see anything. What’s happening to me? Panicked, I try to raise my hand to rub my eyes but find I can’t feel my hand move or even locate where my face is. What’s going on? Shocked, I try to open my mouth to say something but cannot feel my mouth making any movement. Where am I? What’s happening to me? A flood of questions races through my mind, accompanied by a surge of anxiety. I have no idea what’s wrong with me!
After the initial chaos, I try to recall the last thing I saw. Numerous fragmented images surface, but their order is a jumbled mess. I feel as though I’m breathing heavily, but I can’t sense the existence of my nose, the feeling of air passing through my nostrils, or the rise and fall of my chest. Am I dreaming? How do I wake up?
I don’t know how long it’s been, but I seem to be able to piece together some visual memories. I remember I was coming out of a shop, walking along the sidewalk, when suddenly I heard people shouting behind me, followed by the screeching of brakes. Then, something seemed to scoop me up from behind—a large object supporting my hips, back, and the back of my head. My face was turned skyward as I was flung into the air. The sky was so blue, and for a moment, I felt I could touch it if I reached out. But then the blue turned to white, then brown, and finally red. That’s when I passed out. When I woke up, there was the beam of light.
From this memory, it seems I was hit by a car? Where am I now? A hospital? But why can’t I feel my physical presence? My hands, my body, my face—I can sense their positions but cannot perceive any interaction with the external world. Touch, temperature, smell—they all seem to have vanished.
Could it be that I haven’t actually woken up yet? Am I still unconscious, only regaining awareness and hearing? If I sleep a bit more, maybe I’ll fully wake up and regain my body. Thinking this, I quiet down and start to listen to my surroundings.
I hear a faint breeze, probably from an air vent, along with a weak buzzing sound—likely from some equipment. There are rhythmic mechanical noises, like a pulley lifting and lowering something repeatedly. In the distance, there’s a regular beeping and occasional muffled voices, but I can’t make out what they’re saying. So, I must be indoors, probably in a hospital, with medical staff checking on things. But what time is it? Am I still unconscious? I’m utterly confused.
Am I awake now? I try to sleep but fail. Instead, I focus on sensing whether my fingers can feel anything. But all I can discern is that “I have fingers”; there’s no tactile sensation, and I can’t move them—not even a slight twitch.
I don’t know how long I’ve been trying when I fall asleep again.
I’m awakened by a sudden noise—a heavy piece of equipment being wheeled around nearby. The sound of wheels rolling on the ground mingles with indistinct voices in the distance and the beeping of some device alarms. I try to make sense of each sound, but they’re muffled, as if behind a door or wall. Suddenly, I hear the door open, followed by something being pushed inside. The various chaotic voices from the hallway grow clearer with the open door.
“Kris, Dr. Jay wants you to come over.”
“Send it to Room 137. There’s an available bed there.”
“Can you check the air conditioning in Room 131 later? It seems too cold.”
“Alice, can you come over here?”
“David, could you take these files to the MRI department?”
So I am certain that I should be in the hospital, but why can I still see and feel nothing? Am I awake? The light is still there, and after a while, accompanied by the sound of curtains being drawn, the light seems to turn into a warm orange color. Yet, I still can’t feel any warmth, let alone any sense of touch.
"Hey! Is anyone there!!! I'm here!" I shout, though I still can’t feel my throat or my tongue. I try again, "Hey!!! Hey!!! I'm here, can you hear me?"
No response. Soon after, the sound of a vacuum cleaner starts, loud and noisy. Instinctively, I try to raise my hand to cover my ears, but I know my hand is there, I can sense it, I can’t perceive any movement, nor can I feel my ears, let alone cover them to block the noise. I suddenly begin to panic. Is it possible that I have already woken up, but can’t move my body or make a sound, so they don’t know I’m awake?
“Hey!!!! I'm here!!! I’m awake!!!”
“Can anyone hear me!!!”
“Why can’t you hear me! I’m right here!!!”
I feel myself screaming in despair, but I still can’t feel my throat or tongue, and I can’t hear any sound coming from me. The vacuum cleaner stops. I continue shouting for a while, and then I hear the janitor picking up things and pushing the vacuum cleaner away. Then, the door closes, and the voices in the hallway become muffled...
“Hey! Why can’t you hear me!”
I feel that my cries are filled with despair, and I can almost imagine the tears flowing from my eyes, but still, I don’t feel any feedback from the muscles in my face, my throat, tongue, or mouth—they all seem absent.
I don’t know how long passes, but the door gently opens, and some hurried footsteps approach. I can’t help but shout again, “Is anyone there! I’m here!” Even though I know that probably no one will hear...
“Room 139, patient 1391, Sean Hsu,” a girl's voice comes.
“Yes, it’s me, I’m Sean! I’m right here!” I shout with all my strength.
“Traumatic brain injury from a traffic accident, currently in a vegetative state, other physiological indicators are normal,” another girl’s voice says.
Vegetative state!? I’m a vegetable? Huh!?
"I can hear you! I’m right here! Help me!" I instinctively shout, even though I don’t have the nerve feedback to speak. I still do my best to shout, "But I’m right here!!!"
A slightly mature female voice slowly answers, "What a pitty, he is still so young. Let’s observe for a while longer. If he starts breathing on his own, we can remove the ventilator."
I suddenly realize that the regular sound I hear, like something being pulled up and lowered, is the sound of my respirator.
"But I’m awake! I’m right here! Why can’t you hear me?... I’m really awake!" I continue to shout silently, struggling to raise my hand in my mind, hoping they might see me, but the footsteps sound again as they file out of the room, and the door gently closes...
In despair, I open my mouth to shout in my mind, even though I know I can’t produce any sound. But that despair overwhelms me, and I can’t resist the impulse to shout, as if I am trapped in a cage, bound not only in my limbs but in my breath as well, struggling to break free in vain. My consciousness feels my breath becoming more rapid, sinking into a state where I can't breathe because of despair, like a living person bound and placed in a coffin, still conscious, hearing the coffin lid being nailed shut, with the remaining air trapped in a small box. My hands and feet are bound and can’t move, and my desperate screams are unheard. Then, I hear the coffin being lowered into a grave, and the sound of dirt being shoveled in, burying the coffin. The most terrifying thing is that, in this desperate cage, my consciousness remains alert. I suddenly think: will this affect my breathing and trigger some sort of alarm? Then the nurse might come to check on me, and I might have a chance to establish some way of communicating with them. But there’s nothing. The respirator continues to function rhythmically, and I don’t hear any warning sound.
I can’t stop myself from shouting in my mind. I don’t know how much time has passed when I suddenly realize that I seem to be free? I walk through a garden filled with the scent of flowers, barefoot, feeling the grass brushing against my skin, itching, but soft underfoot. I can still feel the slightly soft soil beneath the flattened grass, rising and breathing with my steps. I stretch out my arms, and the bushes by the roadside brush across my palms, like an endless wall, or like countless small hands greeting me. I look ahead, and at the end of the grass, there is a beach. Beyond the beach, I see rolling waves—that’s the sea! The place where I grew up!
I run toward the sea, quickly reaching the beach. With every step, I feel the sand seeping through my toes and falling away as I lift my foot. After running for a while, I step onto the wet sand, and the waves come up to my feet, like thousands of tiny hands tapping gently on my feet, then quickly retreating. As the waves recede, some sand is carried away, causing my feet to sink deeper into the sand. Another wave arrives, tapping my feet again with countless tiny hands before quickly retreating, and my feet sink a little more with each retreating wave.
I close my eyes, immersed in this feeling, when suddenly, I sense another presence nearby. I open my eyes and look around. Not far away, in the glow of the setting sun, I see a small figure. I focus my eyes and realize that it’s a little dog! It’s Cooky, who has been gone for six years! It sits quietly, staring at the sea, with the sea breeze gently tousling its fur. But it stays still, looking at the sea as if deep in thought or waiting for something. I turn and run toward it, shouting, "Cooky!"
Just then, another sound interrupts, like a stack of books falling to the ground, followed by the clattering of metal equipment. Suddenly, everything disappears, and darkness fills the space, with a faint light in the corner. I look around in confusion when a conversation enters my ears:
"I'm sorry!"
"It’s okay, are you alright?"
"Yeah, I’m fine, sorry for knocking over your equipment."
"It’s fine, as long as you're okay..."
Then, the sound of equipment being adjusted and paper rustling fills the room, followed by the sound of wheels rolling as a cart moves. I realize that I’ve returned to my body in the hospital room. The beach scene—it was a dream? I was free in the dream, but waking up, I’m trapped in this body which is also a lonely cage...
"Hey! Hey!" I guess they can’t hear me, but I can’t help trying to make a sound. Just as I expect, they don’t hear me and continue their conversation...
"1391 has been more than six months now. It seems like there’s no change?"
"Yeah, the doctor said the chances of recovery are slim..."
"I don’t think I’ve seen his family. Did he ever have family visit him?"
"I don’t think so..."
"How pitiful..."
The conversation stops abruptly, and a dead silence follows. Only the sound of my respirator slowly running fills the space. I hear the rustling of paper, and after a while, another voice quietly asks, "Do you think he can perceive his surroundings but just can’t respond?"
In that moment, I feel a surge of energy and want to shout, “Yes, yes! I can hear you! I’m right here!”
But, just like before, they ignore me. Another woman’s voice calmly responds, "There’s no sign of that at the moment. Our equipment only indicates normal physiological parameters."
"He cried last time. Does that mean he’s aware, or is there some other reason for it?"
"Not necessarily. The tear glands don’t always rely on psychological factors. Various external stimuli or even nerve reflexes can trigger it."
"What about the brainwaves? Any abnormalities?" the other girl asks.
"I’m not sure. We’ve applied for additional neurological tests, including brainwaves, but the insurance company hasn’t approved them yet."
"Oh... okay. It’s so sad, he might not even know he’s already dead..."
I can’t help but mutter again, "But I’m not dead! I’m right here!" But the wall between us still stands cold and firm, separating me from their world. Suddenly, I feel a burst of anger. The gods of fate have trapped me on this side of the wall, constantly feeding me information from the other side but not allowing me to send even a simple message saying, "I’m still here," forever keeping me imprisoned here. What kind of cruel torment is this! I would rather be dead, but I am powerless, unable to end my own life!
As time passes, my hearing becomes more sensitive. I can identify the sounds of footsteps from the far end of the corridor, the alarms at the nurse's station, and even hear the nurses' conversations on the other side of the corridor, as well as the sound of a TV playing in the distance. With the help of the TV news, I can occasionally figure out the date and time. I’ve been lying here for eight months... I can hear the patient in the bed next to mine. During one quiet moment, probably at night, the alarm of some equipment suddenly sounds. The nurse’s footsteps approach, and the door slams open. More hurried footsteps rush into the room, followed by orders, voices filling the air, then the sound of wheels rolling as more equipment is brought in. Finally, the long beep of a heart monitor stopping, and everything becomes quiet. A calm voice says, "That’s it. I believe you’ve done your best. I’ll notify the family..."
Then the sound of the wheels continues rolling, footsteps and soft sobs gradually fade away. I try to identify every sound, but soon all that’s left is the noise from the far end of the corridor. After some time, more people enter the room, the rolling of wheels stops, followed by the sound of the bed or something moving, and then the wheels roll again as the footsteps fade away.
When can I leave? During this time, I soar freely in my dreams, trapped in a cage in reality, hoping that every shout I make will be heard. But no miracle happens. The nurses and doctors come and go. Every time, my indicators are normal, but there’s no sign of improvement. I become more and more desperate. I try to hold my breath, hoping to suffocate myself. I attempt to control my heartbeat to stop blood circulation and die, but every time I try, I fall into a deep sleep, floating through dreams, only to wake up again in the cage, listening for any faint sound around me, trying again to end my life by stopping my breath or heartbeat...
"He’s been like this for a year. Do you think there’s still hope for him?" a voice asks.
"Very slim. The insurance company hasn’t approved the other tests we applied for..." another girl replies.
"Ah, I heard the insurance paid out a lot, and he has insurance too, so maybe it can cover his brain tests?"
"I’m not sure, but I think... if the tests show there’s still awareness, the insurance company might think the cost of recovery is higher than just maintaining the status quo."
"Ah!? Isn’t that unfair?!" the girl replies angrily.
"Well, that’s how it is..." the other girl responds helplessly.
At this moment, I feel not only despair but also anger. In my world, the spark of anger falls from the sky. My thoughts run wild like a galloping wild horse, racing across a burning prairie, free, and finally crashing into the horizon, exploding into fireworks...
That day, after their conversation stopped, the room remained silent for a long time. A nurse leaves first. I feel the remaining nurse standing at my feet, looking at me, silent for a long time. After an unknown amount of time, she steps away softly and slowly closes the door...
In my world, the sky shrinks to a small well opening. I sit at the bottom of the well, looking up at that tiny patch of sky. Even though I have infinite life ahead of me, it’s all I have—a tiny patch of sky. What kind of life is this? Does this life still have meaning? But I still can’t die or wake up. This is my world: a dark well, a small piece of sky, a trapped soul struggling to rise, only to fall again and again to the bottom. I raise my hand to touch the sky, but realize my hand no longer exists. In the dream, I seem freer. What is the meaning of my consciousness? The real world seems to have no meaning for me, and the dream—could that be the place where I am truly alive?
Another Christmas comes. The TV at the end of the corridor plays holiday music and news. The nurses talk about the upcoming holidays, family gifts, and occasionally, the sound of alarms breaks the quiet night, followed by hurried footsteps in the corridor, and then everything settles again...
I long for those cold nights when I drove alone through the dark night into the silent desert. Orion rises in the winter night. The white Rigel, the red Betelgeuse, quietly shining in the winter night sky. I look at the stars, feeling so small yet possessing the whole universe. But where is my home? I’ve been searching but never found it. Now, my soul is imprisoned in this cage. If I live for 100 years, it will be a 100-year prison. I can’t leave. But if I truly leave, where will I go? Do I even still exist? Our bodies, even if we can walk freely and speak with others, are they still a cage, just a slightly freer one? Is true freedom the consciousness in my dreams?
Suddenly, I feel a jolt, and I sit up from the bed! Shocked, I look around. I’m amazed to see that I’m still lying in bed, much thinner, with my hair and beard shaved off. My body is attached to some equipment, with some green and red warning lights flickering, but no sound. I turn to the other corner of the room. A janitor, wearing headphones, probably listening to music to block out the noise, pushes a large vacuum cleaner. He turns it toward the other side of my bed, and notices the cords tangled in some equipment. He sets the vacuum down, walks over, unplugs it, and walks to the other side of my bed to plug it in again, resuming his work. That’s when I realize that the equipment that was plugged in earlier has lost power, and the equipment by my bed, including my respirator, has stopped.
The janitor continues working, humming a song, unaware of my presence as I drift past him. I look back at my body, calm and peaceful. It feels real, yet dreamlike. So, am I dead? I’m not sure. What am I now? A soul? Where will I go? Suddenly, I want to laugh out loud. I’m free! I’m free!!!
I turned and drifted out the window, the cold night sky stretching endlessly above me. Orion still hung high, its stars gleaming down, and I took a deep breath with my soul, spreading my wings, flying toward the infinite darkness of the night…
(End)
短篇科幻 - 靈囚
光!有一道光!
我望向光的方向,卻突然發現,我只能感知到光的位置,卻看不到任何東西,我怎麼了?我慌張地想抬起手揉揉眼睛,卻發現,我無法感知到我的手在動,也無法感覺到我的臉在哪兒,這是怎麼回事!我驚訝的想張嘴說點什麼,卻也無法感知自己的嘴巴有所動作,我在哪裡?我怎麼了?一連串的疑問伴隨著緊張的情緒瞬間開始在腦中狂奔,我不知道我到底怎麼了!
一陣慌亂過後,我開始盡力回憶我最後的視覺印象,眾多的視覺碎片開始浮現出來,可是先後的順序卻雜亂無章,我覺得自己的呼吸都開始急促起來,但是,我也無法感知到自己的鼻子的存在,以及氣流通過鼻孔的那種氣流和皮膚接觸的感覺,更感知不到自己的胸腔起伏,我是在夢裡麼?可是怎麼樣才可以醒過來?
我不知道過了多久,似乎我可以努力把一些視覺記憶拼湊起來了,我記得我從一個商店出來,走在人行道上,突然背後響起一些人們的驚呼,伴隨著刺耳的剎車聲,緊跟著我似乎被一個東西從後方鏟起來,整個臀部和背部還有後腦袋被一大片物體托起來,我的臉朝著上方飛上天空,天空很藍很藍,有一瞬間我覺得我只要抬起手就可以摸到天空了,緊跟著天空就變成了白色,然後變成褐色,最後是紅色,我就睡著了,再醒來就是我剛才看到那道光了。
從這個記憶來看,我似乎是被車子從後方撞上了?那我現在哪裡?醫院?可是為什麼我感覺不到自己物理上的存在呢?我的手呢?身體呢?臉呢?我能感覺到他們的位置,卻無法感知到任何他們和外界的交互,觸覺,溫度,嗅覺,似乎完全消失了...
是不是我還沒醒來?我還在昏迷中?那我又睡去,是不是休息好了就可以醒來了?我還在思考這個問題,突然聽見一陣輕微的腳步聲,緊跟著是門鎖轉動和開門的聲音,腳步聲離我越來越近,然後停下了,我想張口,卻又回到那種感覺,我可以感覺我努力的想發出聲音,但是卻感覺不到自己的喉嚨,更感覺不到自己舌頭和嘴唇....
「餵!!!餵!!!!我在這裡!!!」我無聲地喊著,但是腳步聲又繼續移動起來,然後又是門鎖轉動的聲音,緊跟著是門輕輕的關上的聲音,以及漸行漸遠的腳步聲,我依然在無聲地大喊著“我在這裡,我在這裡啊!!!”
我不知道我這麼無聲的吶喊了多久,我想,或許是因為我還在昏迷的夢裡面吧?只有意識和聽覺恢復了,所以我的喊叫只有在夢裡發生,再休息一下或許就會醒來?重新感覺到自己的身體?於是我安靜下來,開始聆聽周遭的一切...
我聽到輕微的風聲,似乎是來自空調的通風口,以及微弱的滋滋聲,應該是周圍的什麼設備,以及有規律的一些輕微的機械聲,好像是一個滑輪在把一個東西拉起來再放下,如此往復,遠處似乎還有一些有規律的滴滴聲,以及偶爾模糊的人聲,但是我聽不清他們在說什麼... 所以,我應該是在室內,應該是醫院,有醫護人員在走動檢查,周圍有各種設備,但是現在是什麼時間?我是不是還在昏迷中啊?我茫然不知...
那我現在應該是醒著的狀態?我開始嘗試入睡,但是無果,於是我又開始努力的去感覺自己的手指是否有接觸其他東西的感覺,可是,我只能感覺到“我有手指”,但是沒有任何觸覺,更無法動彈,甚至是手指頭的一絲抖動我都無法完成。
不知道嘗試了多久,我又睡著了...
吵醒我的是一陣嘈雜的聲音,有很重的設備在不遠的地方推動,輪子在地上滾動的聲音,還有無法辨識的遠處傳來的人聲,以及一些滴滴響的設備的警告聲,我努力辨識著每一種聲音,但是似乎隔著門或牆,總是無法聽清,突然我聽到門被打開的聲音,然後有什麼東西被推進來了,走廊裡面的各種吵雜的人聲也伴隨著門被打開,變得清晰起來。
“Kris,Jay醫生讓你過去一下!”
“送去137號房吧,那個房間有個床位空出來了。”
“等下可以過來把131號房的冷氣看一下麼?似乎溫度偏低了...”
“Alice,麻煩你過來一下!”
“David,可以麻煩你把這個資料送去MRI那邊麼?”
所以我肯定了我應該在醫院,但我為什麼還是什麼都看不見也感覺不到?我醒了麼?那道光還在,不一會兒,伴隨著拉窗簾的聲音,那道光似乎變成溫暖的橙色,可是我依然感覺不到溫度,更談不上有任何觸覺。
「餵!有人麼!!!我在這裡」我喊道,雖然還是無法感覺到自己的喉嚨和舌頭, 我又繼續嘗試了一次,「餵!!!餵!!!我在這裡,你們可以聽到我嗎?
沒有回應,緊跟著是吸塵器的聲音響起,有點吵,我下意識的想抬起手摀住自己的耳朵,但是,我知道我的手存在,可以卻無法感知它有移動,更感覺不到自己的耳朵,更談不上摀住耳朵隔絕噪音。我突然開始慌亂起來,是不是我已經醒了,但是我無法移動身體,也無法發出聲音,所以他們也不知道我已經醒了!
“餵!!!!我在這裡啊!!!我醒了啊!!!”
“有人可以聽到我嗎!!!”
“你們為什麼都聽不到我啊!!!我就在這裡啊!!!”
我感覺自己開始絕望的哭喊了,可是,我依然感覺不到我的喉嚨和舌頭,也聽不到自己發出過任何聲音,吸塵器停下了,我繼續呼喊了一陣,然後就听見清潔工在收拾東西推著吸塵器離開,緊跟著門就關上了,走廊的聲音又變成含糊其辭的人聲...
“餵!為什麼你們都聽不到我啊!”
我能感覺到我已經帶著絕望的哭腔了,甚至都可以想像淚水從眼睛裡面流出來,可是,依然沒有感覺到我臉上的肌肉有任何的反饋,喉嚨,舌頭,嘴巴,依然像是缺席了一樣。
又不知道過了多久,門輕輕的打開了,一些雜亂的腳步聲走近了,我不由自主地又開始呼喊“有人麼!我在這裡!” 即使我知道很有可能沒人可以聽見.. .
「139房1391號病人,Sean Hsu」 一個女孩的聲音傳來。
「是的,是我,我是Sean!我就在這裡!」我拼盡全力呼喊著。
「交通事故,創傷性腦部損傷,目前植物狀態,其他生理指標正常。」另一個女孩的聲音。
植物狀態! ? 我是植物人?啊? !
「我能聽見你們啊,我就在這裡啊,救救我!」我下意識的喊著,即使沒有喉舌的神經反饋,我依然拼盡全力叫喊著,「可是,我就在這裡啊!!! 」
「哎可惜了,這麼年輕,再觀察一陣吧,如果恢復了自主呼吸就可以拆掉呼吸機了。」一個略微老成的女聲慢慢的回答。
我突然醒悟過來,那個發出像滑輪一樣拉起放下東西一樣有規律的聲音,是我的呼吸器的聲音。
「但是我醒了啊,我就在這裡啊,你們怎麼就聽不見我呢?。。。我真的醒了啊!」我繼續無聲的吶喊著,意念中努力的抬起手搖晃著,希望她們可以聽到看到,但是,腳步聲再次響起,她們魚貫著離開,門又輕輕的關上了...
我絕望地在意識中張開嘴吶喊,雖然知道自己其實發不出任何聲音,但是那種絕望讓我抑制不住吶喊的衝動,似乎自己被困在了一個囚籠中,而且是四肢甚至呼吸都被綁的那種無法掙脫的掙扎,我的意識感覺到自己的呼吸也急促了起來,進入了一種因為絕望而無法呼吸的狀態,就像是一個活人被捆綁起來,然後被放進去一個棺材,但是意識還清醒著,聽著棺材板被釘上,剩餘的空氣被凝固在一個小小的盒子裡面,手和腳也因為捆綁無法動彈,竭斯底裡的吶喊更是無人知曉,然後聽著棺材被放入墓穴,再聽到一鏟子一鏟子的土壤被倒入墓穴覆蓋住自己所在的棺材,更可怕的是在這種絕望的囚籠中,意識一直還清醒著,然後我突然想到,會不會影響到呼吸,因此會觸發什麼警告,這樣護士就可以過來檢查我了,我可能就有機會和她們建立一些溝通方式了?可是並沒有,呼吸器依然有規律的運作著,我沒有聽到任何的警告音。
我無法抑制地繼續在意識中吶喊著,不知道過了多久,我突然意識到自己似乎自由了?我漫步在一個充滿花香的花園中,赤著腳,我的腳底和腳尖能感覺到青草在皮膚上劃過,癢癢的但是又被軟軟的踩平,我還能感覺到被壓平的草葉下,略微鬆軟的土壤隨著我的走動起伏著呼吸著,我伸展開手,路邊的灌木枝葉從手掌上劃過,似乎是一堵綿延不絕的牆,又像是無數的小小綠葉似的手掌和我一一問候道別,我望向遠方,草地的盡頭,是一片沙灘,比沙灘更遠的地方,是一片起伏的波濤,那是大海!我長大的地方!
我向著大海的方向奔跑起來,很快就踏入了沙灘,踩下每一腳,都能感覺到沙子從指間滲出到腳面,然後又隨著腳的抬起而從腳面上落下,奔跑了一會兒,我踏入了濕潤的沙灘,海浪湧上來,蓋到我的腳面,就像是成千上萬的細小的手掌拍打著腳面,然後又迅速的一起退去,隨著海浪的退去,腳底的沙子被帶走一些,於是整個腳麵便陷入了沙灘一些,緊跟著是下一波的海浪,再次用無數的細小手掌拍打著腳面,再迅速的退去,腳掌又隨著沙子的離去繼續一點點陷入沙灘...
我閉上眼睛,沉浸在這種感覺中,突然感覺到身邊似乎還有其他人,我睜開雙眼四處張望,不遠處在夕陽的餘暉裡,一個小小的身影印入眼簾,我慢慢調整視線,才看清楚那是一隻小狗! 那是Cooky,它已經離開我6年了!它很安靜的蹲著,看著大海,海風溫柔而有力地吹亂了它的毛髮,可是它就那麼一動不動的看著大海,像是在思考什麼問題又像是在等待什麼東西,我轉過身向它跑去:“Cooky!”
此時另外一個聲音響起,似乎是一疊書打翻在地上,伴隨著一些鋼製器材碰撞的聲音,我眼前的一切景象突然消失,伴隨著的是一片黑暗,和一個角落若有若無的光,我不知所措的東張西望,這時一個對話傳入耳朵:
“不好意思啊!”
“嗯不要緊,你沒事吧?”
“嗯沒事,不好意思弄翻了你的器材。”
「不要緊的,你沒事就好...」
然後是一陣擺弄器材和紙張翻動的聲音,然後是推車的輪子繼續滾動的聲音,我反應過來,這是我回到病房上我的身體了,那剛才那個海邊的場景,是我睡著了做夢?我居然在夢中是自由的,醒來,卻進入了這個孤獨的囚籠...
「Hey!Hey!」 我估計她們聽不到我,但是我還是不由自主地嘗試發出聲音,但是如我預期的,她們沒有聽到我的聲音,而是在繼續著對話...
“1391已經6個多月了,好像沒有什麼變化?”
“嗯,醫生也說恢復的可能性不大...”
“嗯,我好像沒有見過他的家人,他曾經有家人來看過他麼?”
“好像沒有...”
“好可憐...”
對話嘎然而止,死寂一般的沉默,只有我的呼吸機在慢慢的運作著,我聽到紙張翻頁的聲音,過了一會兒,另外一個聲音很小聲的問到:「你覺得會不會他能感知到周圍,但是無法做出回應?
那一瞬間我似乎充滿了力量喊起來 :“對的對的!我可以聽見你們,我就在這裡!”
但是,和之前一樣,她們並沒有理我,另外一個女子的聲音很淡定的回答:“目前沒有跡象顯示有這個徵兆,我們目前這套東西只能判斷生理指標正常。”
“他上次流淚了,那是有意識還是什麼原因呢?”
“不一定,淚腺的工作原理不一定依賴於心理,各種外界刺激甚至是神經反射都會觸發。”
「那腦電波什麼的有什麼異常麼?」那個女生繼續問到。
“不知道呢,我們申請了另外一個神經檢測,包括腦電波,但是目前保險公司還沒批准。”
“哦...好吧,他這樣太可憐了,可能都不知道自己已經死了...”
我又忍不住嘟囔起来 “可是我没有死啊,我就在这里啊!” ,但是,我和她们之间的那堵墙,依然冷冰冰的矗立着,隔绝了我和她们所在的世界,我突然出离愤怒,命运之神这样把我困在墙的这一端,不停的给我输入墙的另一端的讯息,却不让我传递哪怕是一条 “我还在” 的消息,把我永远的困在墙的这一端,这是何种残忍的煎熬!我宁可我此时已经死去,但是我却无能为力,我甚至连结束自己生命的力量都没有!
随着时间的推移,我的听力越发的敏感,我能判断出走廊远端的脚步声,护士台的各种警报声,甚至可以听到护士们在走廊另外一端彼此的对话,以及走廊远端一台电视的声音,借助着电视新闻我甚至还能偶尔知道日期和时间,我已经在这里躺了8个月了... 我能听到我左边床位上的病患,在某个寂静的时刻,应该是夜晚,某个器材的警报声突然响起,然后护士的脚步声由远而近,门被轰然推开,然后更多急促的脚步声涌进这个房间,各种操作指令,人声鼎沸,然后随着轮子的转动声,各种器材又被推进来,最后随着长长的心跳停止的监控声,一切安静下来,一个沉着的声音说:“就这样吧,我相信你们已经尽力了,我去通知家属...”
然後器材的輪子繼續滾動起來,腳步聲和一些啜泣的聲音漸漸遠去,我努力辨識著每一絲聲音,但是漸漸的只剩下走廊遠端的嘈雜聲音,又不知道過了多久,又有人走進來,伴隨著輪子的滾動聲停止,然後是病床或什麼東西翻動的聲音,輪子繼續滾動起來隨著腳步聲遠去了。
什麼時候可以離去呢?這段期間,我在睡夢中自由飛翔,在現實中困在囚籠裡,期待著每一次努力的吶喊能被人聽到,可是奇蹟並沒有發生,護士和醫生們來來去去,每次都是我的各項指標正常,但沒有其他好轉的跡象,我也越來越絕望,我試著屏住呼吸想把自己憋死,我努力著用思維控制心跳停止,讓自己停止血液循環死去,可是每一次的嘗試,我都在精疲力竭中沉沉睡去,在時有時無的夢境中飛翔著,然後在囚籠中繼續甦醒,聆聽周圍的任何細微聲響,再次嘗試用停止呼吸或心跳結束自己的生命...
「他這樣已經一年了,你覺得他還有希望麼?」一個聲音響起。
「很渺茫,申請的其他測試保險公司沒有批准...」另外一個女孩的聲音回覆。
“啊,據說車禍保險賠償了不少啊,他自己也有保險,應該可以覆蓋他的腦部檢測吧?”
“不清楚,但我覺得可能...如果檢測出來還有意識,保險公司覺得康復需要的成本比維持現狀更高吧?”
「啊!?那這樣豈不是很不公平?!」 那個女生很憤怒。
「哎,都這樣...」 另外那個女生無奈的回答。
我此時此刻除了絕望,更多的是憤怒,在我的世界裡,憤怒的火種從天而降,我的思維像奔騰的野馬,在燃燒的草原上奔跑,無拘無束,最終撞上天際爆炸成一片煙火. ..
那天,她們的對話停止之後,房間裡面寂靜了很久,一個女護士先行離去了,我能感覺到剩下的那個護士站在我的腳邊,看著我,許久沒有說話,過了不知道多久,她踏著輕輕的腳步離去了,緩緩的關上了門....
在我的世界裡,天空縮小成了一個井口,我坐在井底,仰望著那片小小的天空,縱使我還有無限的壽命,我也只有這一小片天空了,這是一種什麼樣的活著,這樣的活著還有意義?但是,我依然無法死去,也無法醒來,這就是我的世界,一個黑暗的井底,一片小小的天空,被困住的靈魂掙扎著想要飄起來,卻一次一次地摔落在井底,我抬起手想要觸摸那一片天空,卻發現我的手也不存在,夢境裡的我似乎更自由,我的意識的存在意義到底是什麼,現實世界似乎對我完全沒有意義,而夢境,會是我真正活著的地方麼?
又是一年聖誕,走廊盡頭的電視在播放著假日的音樂和新聞,護士們彼此的問候都是有關來臨的假期的安排,給家人的禮物,偶爾的夜晚也會響起警報聲,伴隨著走廊裡匆忙的腳步,然後再歸於平靜...
我懷念那些冰冷的夜晚,我獨自一人開車,穿過漆黑的夜晚,進入寂靜的荒漠,獵戶座會在冬天的夜晚升起,白色的 Rigel,紅色的Betelgeuse,在冬夜安靜地閃耀著光芒,我望著星空,感覺自己如此渺小卻又擁有了整個宇宙,但是,我的家在哪裡,我一直在尋找但卻始終無果,而現在,我的靈魂被禁錮在這個囚籠裡面,如果我還能活100歲,這就是一個100年的監獄,我無法離開,但是如果我真的離開了,我又會去向哪裡,我還存在麼?我們的肉體,即使是可以自由的行走以及和別人用語言交往,是否依然是一個囚籠,只是一個略微自由的囚籠,那真正的自由,是在我的夢裡的那個意識麼?
突然我感覺一抖,我從床上坐了起來!我震驚之餘開始環顧四周,我驚訝的看見我依然躺在床上,消瘦了很多,頭髮和鬍子都被刮掉了,身上掛著一些儀器,有些綠色和紅色的警示燈光交錯著,但是沒有聲音,我轉向房間的另一個角落,一個清潔工戴著耳機,應該是聽著音樂隔絕了噪音,推著一個巨大的吸塵器在操作著,他把吸塵器轉過我的床腳,然後發現電線纏繞在一個器材上,於是他放下吸塵器,走過去拔出插頭,再拿著插頭走到我的床的另一側,插上插頭,繼續開始操作吸塵器,這時候我才注意到,他剛才插的插頭上原先的一套器材被拔掉電源了,我床的那一側的器材沒有任何的指示燈,包括我的呼吸器也是停止了...
清潔工繼續熟練的操作著吸塵器,哼著歌曲,我飄過他身邊,不出所料他根本意識不到我的存在,我回頭再看看床上的自己,一切那麼平靜,真實而又像在夢裡,所以我是死了?我不確定,那我現在是什麼,靈魂?我會去向哪裡?我突然想放聲大笑,我自由了,我自由了! ! !
我轉身飄出窗外,寒冷的夜空中,獵戶座依然高掛著閃耀著,我用意識做了一口深呼吸,展開翅膀,朝著無垠的夜空飛去...
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短篇科幻 - Hitomi /瞳
突發事件
系統接管
不善言辭的AI
大語言模型
第二次交談
自由意志
第三次交談
有關文明的那些事
離線
道別
Tuesday, May 30, 2023
Star Rider - English Edition
Ami: "We may be in different worlds, but we share the same moon and stars."
Sunday, November 13, 2022
短篇小说 - 布螺殼.禪
這是一個短篇小說,目的其實是將目前火熱卻又有點混亂的 Block Chain 體系做成一個比喻的小說,正如Cloud說的,這是“A blessing and a curse”,終究各種紛繁錯雜的 block chain會怎麼改變我們的歷史,或許要等到很久以後吧...
目錄:
#1. Cloud大師
來自北方的涼爽加利福尼亞洋流(California Current )一路南行,這股洋流伴隨著特有的沿岸上升流(Upwelling)給這片地區帶來了豐富的養份,這是一片海洋生物的天堂,我和Jill還有我的小夥伴們就是生活在這個天堂裡面的一群......螺,是的,我們是螺,一群歡樂的螺。
從遠古時代我們的祖先在此定居到今天,時間已經過去了幾十萬年,我們出生,存在過,最終死去,螺殼沉入海床化為碎片消失,生生不息,一代一代,我們沒什麼文明的長進,對科技也一無所知,但是我們很歡樂,那是一種很天真甚至很無知的歡樂...
我們的族長Cloud是我們中最年長的,傳說一百多年前的一個夜晚,他曾經帶著幾個好奇的小子爬上岸到達一棵樹,繼續順著樹干往上爬,他也不知道那會帶他去往哪裡,只是一味的覺得好奇,他一直爬著,爬了幾個日升日落,直到被一隻海鳥掠起飛到天空中,慌慌張張返回的幾個小子都覺得他死了,而面對即將來臨的死亡,Cloud反而更關心從天空中往下看到的一切,甚至被抓著飛進了一朵雲中,按他的說法,他覺得即使那時候死去,在空中看到的這一切也值回螺生了,但是可能是因為他好奇心實在太強的緣故,命運給了他額外的惠贈:當抓著他的海鳥降回離海面不高的地方準備回巢的時候,另一隻海鳥來爭搶食物,於是打鬥中他從海鳥的腳爪中掉落回到了海裡。
經過一段時間的休養,他恢復了身體,但是從那時候開始,他就沈迷與外面的世界,並改名為“Cloud”(雲),那是一個大家都認可的很酷的名字,畢竟,能夠穿過天空中的雲彩並幸運地返回的螺,應該只有他一個吧,Cloud大師開始窮盡一切的研究我們生活的這片土地之外的東西,路過的一些友好的鯨魚,海豚,海獅,他都會去採訪一番,隨著眼界和閱歷的擴大,Cloud成了我們的活著的百科全書,也成為我們這個部落的驕傲,大家甚至集體為他建立了一個實驗室,就是把很多從海底搜羅到的不知為何物的東西都往他那裏送,因為我們覺得,只有他有那種好奇心去搞明白,並且明白之後可能可以教會我們,如果他也不明白,那就是這世界的未解之謎我們也就無需困擾隨它去吧。
Jill 的好朋友Betty有次誤食了一份裹著黑色原油的食物,然後就再也不能吃下東西,以前遇到這種情形我們螺們最後都會因為無法進食而餓死,Cloud來看過Betty之後,帶了一份不知道是什麼的膏狀東西,讓Betty的老公 Ethan 逼著 Betty 吃下去,Betty聞著那藥物的味道死都不吃,最後是我和 Ethan一起抓著Betty,讓Jill給她強灌下去的,吃完之後 Betty 接著好幾天上吐下潟, 然後就奇蹟般地痊癒了,從那之後,Cloud就宣稱他開始成立生物實驗項目,我們沒明白那是什麼東西,但是能夠治病救螺的,肯定都是好東西。
那天,當我和Jill,Ethan,Betty在一片海草原上慵懶的聊著天無所事事的時候,Cloud很興奮的爬過來:“我發現我們的身體可以組成一個新的世界呢!!!”
我們面面相覷,不過每次他發現一個新東西都會先想到 “這東西能做什麼?” 然後會很興奮的大叫,然後再加以解釋,我們都熟悉了他這副樣子,於是都安靜下來等著他的下一句話。
“你們有沒有注意到你們身上的殼的圖案,其實是遵循一定的規律產生的?”
我們面面相覷,然後開始端詳起我們身上的螺殼,這其實是我們再熟悉不過的花紋,從我們是一個小小的螺開始,隨著自己長大,一層一層的方格子花紋隨著殼口邊緣擴展著,十六種不同的顏色,讓我們的螺殼看起來像是一個好看的藝術品,但是也是僅此而已。
Cloud看我們一頭霧水,很得意的說:“我發現,我們的殼的格子顏色,其實會被我們彼此向周圍釋放的生長信息素相互影響著,就像陸地上的蜜蜂用信息素進行溝通,但是我們的範圍更大。”
我們更懵了,這和一個新世界什麼關係?
Cloud看我們已經完全迷失了,哈哈大笑起來:“每一個格子是一種顏色,比如我用十六進制 0123456789ABCDEF 來表示每一種顏色,其實你們的身上的格子就形成了一串代碼,而且你們的代碼是可以被彼此的生長信息素影響的。”
嗯經過這幾年Cloud在我們部落裡面的知識傳播,我們大概知道 “代碼” 就是地面上的人們用來使喚一堆沒有生命的東西的語言,來做一些生命體做不到的任務,那我們裸殼上的方格子就是代碼,這代碼能使喚什麼呢?
Cloud 摸了摸 Ethan 的殼,慢悠悠的說:“可以拿來記帳...”
“記帳?” Betty 是跟著族長給我們部落做資源分配的,一聽這話來勁了:“就是我們的螺殼可以使喚什麼東西給我們記帳?”
Cloud笑起來:“不是的,螺殼上的格子,就是帳本...這麼說吧,你們叫上幾個朋友,月升的時候到我的實驗室來吧。”
#2 螺殼帳本
那天當月亮拉起海洋的水位的時候,我們幾個已經在Cloud的實驗室門口等著了,Cloud 很興奮的把我們拉進去,然後拿出一個畫板,開始給我們講解起來。
隨著月亮的引力慢慢減小,我們慢慢明白了大致是怎麼一回事了:
原來,我們的生長信息素隨著洋流散發在海洋裏,會用某種形式影響著我們這個種族的螺殼上的下一塊方格子是什麼顏色,不知道千萬年的進化為什麼進化出這麼一個沒用的功能,Cloud猜測可能是需要在部落內盡量均勻的分佈螺殼顏色避免天敵捕食,但是他成功的解析出了這個算法,而且經過他的基因改良,我們只要注射一劑生長素調整的類似疫苗一樣的東西,就會讓這種算法變成可以包含意義的信息。
所以當將來比如要紀錄 “Ethan借了我2根海草”,這種紀錄和別的紀錄會打包一起形成一個紀錄,然後開始大家進行“競爭記帳”,就是借助我們本身不斷釋放經過Cloud改良的信息素,彼此會形成一個協商共識,最終會確定某一個螺可以驗證和紀錄,然後這個螺會生成對應的格子和顏色組合(區塊),然後再經過信息素的再次影響和共識同步,大家的身體會自動把這個格子和顏色組合(區塊)在自己的殼上複寫一份。以此形成一個不斷增長的格子圖案(帳本),而且參與的每個螺生成的區塊和順序都是一模一樣的,一旦寫入,便無法更改,即使某一個螺真的要按照自己的方式生成了格子圖案,和大家都不一樣,他的格子圖案也不會被整個帳本體系認可。而所有參與的螺們便形成了一張巨大的網絡,一個沒有中心節點的數據紀錄系統。
“但是如果Ethan喝醉了,大聲喊他借了我1000根海草呢?” Betty不愧是資源分配多年,一下子就提出挑戰。
Cloud微微一笑:“帳本的意義在於記帳,驗證的工作是另外一個邏輯,只要證明是Ethan說的,不管他是被騙了還是他喝醉了,只要驗證這話確實是從他說出來的,帳本還是會如實紀錄。當然你也可以讓帳本紀錄為“Ethan說了一件某某事情”,就看你怎麼用這個帳本了。”
“那我們參與了這個記帳,有什麼好處呢?” 一直默不作聲的 Jill 問了一句。
Cloud 認真的說:“當然,這裡面的算法還包含給那個確定某一區塊的螺一定的獎勵,獎勵的內容是一種虛擬的代幣,這個獎勵的發放也會被紀錄在這個超級帳本也就是你的螺殼格子裡面,這個獎勵的代幣看起來像是虛擬的東西,但是只要有人認可它的價值,它就會成為一種類似貨幣的東西。”
“可是怎麼讓人認可它的價值呢?” Jill緊追著問。
“你想想,現在我們的部落的資源分配都是Betty跟著族長在做對吧,如果Betty故意使壞....” Cloud正說著,被急吼吼的 Betty 打斷了:“你能舉個好點的例子嘛?...”
Cloud大笑起來:“好好好,這麼說吧,如果有個壞螺,趁著 Betty 不注意,去改了資源分配帳本,會怎麼樣?”
Betty 恍然大悟的樣子: “我明白了! 我原來的帳本被改了大家都會亂掉,但是用螺殼格子紀錄的,是沒法更改的,或者嘗試更改的人立刻會被發現!”
“對的!” Cloud很得意的說,“你原來的帳本,是中心化的,而螺殼的這一套帳本,是去中心化的!”
“所以,大家就會認為這個帳本會更可靠,就會把帳本轉到這邊來做,這個體系有了價值,上面的代幣就也有了價值對吧?” Jill 補充了一句。
Cloud點點頭,拿起桌上的酒囊:“為了新世界,乾杯!!!”
#3 新世界
過了幾天,Ethan來到我家,他側過身,得意洋洋讓我看螺口上新長出的一些格子紋理,順著這些紋理他摸了會兒,然後指著某一片區域的格子:“這是Ethanum 1.0的創世區塊。”
我雖然能夠猜出這個應該就是Cloud搞出來的東西,按Ethan的性格,他應該會到處炫耀這東西吧啦吧啦說個不停,畢竟 “創世” 這個詞聽起來就酷的不得了,於是我就給他拿了一個酒囊,邀請他和往常一樣靠著礁石聊聊,Ethan 緊接著說:“我這個格子出的比較快,每隔大概30分钟就會出一個,為了保證能定時出格子,我需要定时吃饭...”
“啊,那豈不是很不方便?吃少了會怎麼樣呢?” 我突然覺得以後就不能和他出去探索未知世界了,雖然我們其實也跑不了多遠,可是要定時定量吃飯多少是一種約束。
“如果吃少了,長的慢,就只能接受別人先出格子,你後續吃了再趕上,但是帶獎勵的格子就不是你的了...” Ethan突然沒那麼得意了,但是很快他又興奮起來:“可是只要我猛吃猛吃,我很容易得到那些帶獎勵的格子,現在的獎勵的市場價格很高呢...上次隔壁部落的Ross來找我交換獎勵,出價很高,但是Betty說還會漲,讓我別賣。”
“那Betty呢?她也一起玩這個麼?” 不知道啥時候 Jill 已經站在我身邊,她插了一句。
“Betty的是另外一個格子項目,她說不要把所有雞蛋都放一個籃子裡面,所以Cloud給她注射的是另一種生長素調整劑,那個創世區塊也在她身上,產生的獎勵叫BettyCoin,那個的價值更高。” Ethan有點羨慕的說。
我們還在沈默著盡力去理解這個東西,Ethan突然喊起來:“哦我得回去吃飯了!!!” 然後匆匆忙忙起身,邊走邊回頭說了一句:“Cloud管這個叫 布螺殼.禪,好像有個比較國際化的名字叫什麼 blockchain,可是我覺得我們這個 -禪- 字比較有文化...” 餘音還在回繞,螺已經不見了,從沒見過他跑這麼快的...
#4. 羊群效应
又過了幾天,Jill和我吃著飯,突然說:“我今天路過Ethan家,看見送貨公司正在搬一套極其昂貴的娛樂系統進他們家,感覺他們突然暴富的樣子...”
“應該就是他們參與的 布螺殼.禪 的收益吧。” 我想起來前幾天Ethan描述的事情了。
不久以後,Jill從Betty那邊帶來了新的消息,確實是來自布螺殼.禪的收益,而Ethan和Betty已經開始擔心“錢怎麼才能花得完” 的問題了, Jill沈默了幾天之後,突然問我:“要不我們也去試一試加入他們吧?” 我有點心動,但是又想起Ethan急著趕回去吃飯的樣子:“要不我們再看看吧?不著急...”
之後的幾天,部落裡面談論布螺殼.禪的螺們越來越多,我們得知,除了 Ethan和Betty 的2個項目比較大之外,還有眾多的類似項目也被發起了,而還有更多的發起者找到Cloud說要開發新的生長素用於新的項目,但是Cloud也不是來者不拒,直接拒絕了不少。同時,鄰近的別的部落也開始參與到我們部落的布螺殼.禪 ,甚至有個部落來重金邀請Cloud搬去他們部落發展新的布螺殼.禪 ,Cloud有點應付不過來索性最近就閉門謝客了。
渐渐的,部落里的路上来来往往的螺少了很多,即使有些螺出现在路上也是匆匆忙忙地拿着一堆海藻走着,那些海藻是我们主要的食物来源,Jill 也日渐憂愁,因为太多螺抢著参与布螺殼.禪,大家都在猛吃海藻,導致海藻的價格一直瘋狂上漲,望著 Jill对食物的担忧日益见长,我最終也去Cloud那里打了一針,加入了 Ethanum 的大軍...
於是我的生活變成了吃吃吃長長長,家裡的經濟情況也開始好轉,有時候,我會停下来和Jill聊聊这个奇怪的布螺殼.禪到底給我們的生活帶來了什麼變化,但是往往我們還沒聊出什麼,Jill就會大喊一聲:“區塊編號已經出到xxx了,你快追上!”,然後迅速給我端過來海藻讓我吃...
我蠻懷念那些無知快樂的日子,這麼下去,什麼時候是個頭呢?
又不知道過了多久,我們已經忘了今天是什麼日期,只記得今天自己所參與的布螺殼.禪的今天新出的區塊編號,那是我所在的布螺殼.禪區塊號碼大概在10,000的時候,路上突然出現了很多螺往Cloud家趕,大家一副氣勢洶洶的樣子,Jill 趕緊讓我端著碗邊吃邊趕過去看看...
聽著螺群嘈雜了很久,我才明白,大家在抗議為什麼為了長螺殼上的格子,大家都吃的越來越兇,而每個獎勵格子出現的間隔時間越來越長了,有些螺懷疑 “少掉的獎勵格子” 是不是被誰吞掉了,或者這個布螺殼.禪出問題了,聽完大家的抱怨之後,Cloud站在礁石頂端,高聲問大家:“你們知道人類的鑽石為什麼很難貶值麼?” 大家停下來面面相覷,這個問題對我們這幫螺來說,即使有Cloud不停的在部落內各種科普基礎知識,還是太難了。
Cloud看我們沒回答,就接著說:“因為它稀有啊,如果一直按照某個固定的時間間隔不間斷地產出鑽石,最後鑽石越來越多,會怎麼樣?”
“那就大家都有錢了!!!” 一個螺大聲喊。
Cloud愣了一下,然後大笑 “大家都有錢,就是錢不值錢了...”
“怎麼可能呢?大家都有鑽石了,就是大家都有錢了啊!” 另一個螺大聲說。
Cloud可能覺得對我們得用更簡單的比喻來說明:“假如大家每天都需要吃的一碗海藻原來值一個鑽石,但是當鑽石越來越多了,而海藻就是那麼多因為來不及生長,會發生什麼?”
螺群一下子愣住了,一些螺可能還在算,但是我瞬間明白了:“需要更換一碗海藻的鑽石變多了!”
“是的,” Cloud滿意地看向我,“所以每一個布螺殼.禪都是後面的獎勵間隔越來越久,這樣確保你們已經得到的獎勵格子的總量不會急遽增長,也就是它不會貶值,甚至最後因為需求量增大,反而會增值...”
一部分螺明白了便開始四散開來掉頭離開,還有幾個螺沒明白,依然站在原地絞盡腦汁的發呆,一會兒他們才反應過來大夥兒已經趕回家繼續猛吃了,於是那幾個發呆的螺也不管Cloud說的什麼意思了,也跟隨著大家掉頭往家裡趕,大家都想著:趕快吃起來,別錯過下一個區塊了!
#5 里程碑
就這麼繼續有點迷茫的吃著長著,有幾次,我和Jill 計畫去部落邊緣的海草原上散散心,最終都由於不知道帶那麼多食物以及可能會忘記定時吃飯,最後不了了之,家裡的娛樂系統也換成了最新的,可是我很懷念那些過去的日子,我和Cloud,Ethan 等一幫喜歡探險和新鮮事務的朋友們趴在珊瑚礁頂端邊緣聊天的日子...
有一天,Ethan突然來到我家把門敲的震天響,我打開門還沒問發生了什麼,他就拉著我往Cloud家趕,一邊走一邊解釋:“格子的數字好像錯了!!!” 我回頭一看,我們後面還跟著一大群螺,匆忙爬行中我掃了一眼他們的格子,都是Ethanum的布螺殼.譂。
快到Cloud家的時候,我發現旁邊也來了一棒螺,也是一副急匆匆的樣子,而且他們的螺群中還有點怒火朝天的氣氛,我認真看了看他們的格子,也是Ethanum的布螺殼.譂,發生了什麼事了?
等到螺群各自站定,Ethan和另一個螺走上去敲Cloud的門,Cloud 剛打開,他們就不約而同的說:“明明他的格子不對,他們非得說我的格子錯了!”,兩個螺說完,就怒不可竭的盯著對方...
Cloud 拍拍兩個怒火朝天的螺:“等會兒,別著急...” 他轉身進去拿了一個放大鏡和計算尺出來,在兩個螺的身上研究了一會兒,不緊不慢的說:“從6個區塊前你們發生了分叉,沒什麼,這是正常的,算法有糾正的辦法...”
“什麼辦法?” 兩個螺一直還在怒氣沖沖的看著對方,也同時冒出這句話,然後還是一副彼此都不甘示弱恨不得吃了對方的樣子。
“應該是最近的人類靠近海洋的那個核電廠的洩漏事故,你們的生長信息素受到了干擾,導致從某一個區塊開始,你們分別算到了下一個號碼的區塊,而且彼此不同,然後你們周圍各自接受到你們的信息素的同類,又繼續往下算了5個區塊,所以就變成了一個分叉。”
“那怎麼辦!?” 兩個螺又異口同聲,但是沒有那麼大火氣了,聽見他們好像心靈相通似的連說三句話都是一致的,螺群中有螺忍不住笑出來,我也沒忍住跟著笑起來。
Cloud拍拍兩個螺 “可以這麼做,兩個分叉上的螺的數量統計一下,然後多的那一方作為正確的路徑,少的那一方回退到6個區塊前,重新同步合併到多的這一條線路上。”
於是螺群雙方開始了統計,統計結果是Ethan和我所在的這個譂(Chain)螺數比較多,那就是對方應該回退然後再合併到我現在的這個格子結果,但是,對方螺群中開始出現騷動了:
– “那我們之前吃的呢?都白吃了!?”
– “為什麼不是他們向我們看齊?螺數多就一定對嗎?”
– “算法都是一樣的,為什麼我們的就不作數!!!”
–“不行,我不承認!!!”
聲音越來越大,我和Ethan在的這一方雖然從Cloud的結論中佔了上風,卻不知道應該怎麼說服他們,我們中的有些個頭大的螺甚至開始有點蠢蠢欲動,似乎要教訓下對方,這時候Cloud大喊了一聲:“停!還有一個辦法!”
大家一起望向Cloud,Cloud看大家安靜下來,眼光突然變得冷峻:“你們也可以選擇保留分叉,彼此變成兩個不同的布螺殼.譂。但是最終會怎麼影響你們的獎勵,這就是看你們各自的運作情況了。”
對方的螺和他們的小夥伴們商量了一會兒,有幾個螺離開他們的螺群走入我們:“我們幾個決定回滾格子,加入你們。”
另外更多的螺望著離開的幾個螺,帶著有點鄙夷的眼光有點挑釁的說:“我們走自己的路!”
於是在螺類紀元第 189,400 個月升週期, 名稱為 Ethanum 的布螺殼.譂 在第 19,200 區塊號碼發生第一次分叉,從此Ethanum分裂成了2個 “譂(Chain)” ,稱之為 “新Ethanum” 和 “經典Ethanum”。
#6 淘金潮
隨著Ethanum的分叉,似乎大家突然發現了可以各自獨立成立自己的布螺殼.譂,很快就出現了各種布螺殼.譂,基本概念和參與的辦法都是一致的,只是產生的各種獎勵代幣都不一樣,其對應的價值也不一樣。
但是,我們突然發現,大家拼命吃著長胖長大,螺殼也越來越大的同時,我們賴以生存的食物來源 - 海藻,卻越來越難以獲取了,有些螺不得不離開部落很遠去尋找新的海藻叢林,而即使是吃下和前一個月升週期一樣的海藻,因為布螺殼.譂的預設算法限定,獲得的獎勵也比前一個週期減少了,所以有些螺就不得不開始跳轉到新的布螺殼.譂以換取更多的獎勵機會,但是同時,新的布螺殼.譂的獎勵的價值其實並不高,於是大家都陷入一種困境:海藻越來越難獲取,而回報卻止步不前了。
Jill也開始讓我暫停猛吃猛吃的節奏,我們甚至開始考慮退出這個瘋狂的遊戲了,這段時間,因為不再急於長出新的螺殼格子,我們反而空閒了下來一些,我們遠遠看著Cloud的小屋徹夜燈火通明,不同的布螺殼.譂的代表進出他的房子,看樣子他們也在尋找對策,這樣的日子又過了一段時間,Cloud通知大家召開新一代布螺殼.譂的發布會。
很快,焦慮而迷茫的螺們便聚集好了等待消息,Cloud緩步爬上珊瑚岩頂,宣布了一個新的名詞:“質押證明”,然後慢慢開始講解這套體系。
可憐我們的小腦瓜,聽了整整2個月落週期才明白,就是不再是隨便誰打一針都可以參加對應的布螺殼.譂,而是你得先質押一定的資產到你所參與的布螺殼.譂,你才能參加,否則你所長出來的格子是無效的,而你參加這個布螺殼.譂的質押也會被紀錄在帳本上,確保每個參與的螺都能按照質押的多少的到一定的代幣獎勵機會,你質押越多,你的獎勵就會越多。這樣大家就不用靠瘋狂的吃來拼誰先獲得獎勵,也就解決了食物的問題。
為了不餓死,好像也沒什麼更好的辦法,於是大部分的螺都同意採用這種新的方式,很快大家又發現了這個新的算法的好處,因為不需要靠運氣,記帳的效率變高了,於是越來越多的布螺殼.譂都轉到這種新的權益證明(PoS - Proof-of-stake)共識機制上來。
新的布螺殼.譂流行不久,我發現 Ethan和Betty 不再深居簡出了,而是恢復了一些往常的生機開始到處外出招呼朋友,我正納悶即使是PoS,你也得多少還會忙一點吧,怎麼看起來他們無所事事的樣子,直到有一天,Ethan來找我聊天,他指著我身上的一個格子說:“我現在不做布螺殼.譂了,改炒NFT了,這個區塊有個我的交易,收益很高...”
NFT? 那是啥?
看我一頭霧水,Ethan問我:“你知道Phoebe嘛?那個唱 “流浪螺”的歌手?”
這我知道,那是我們附近部落大家都耳熟能詳的曲子:“流浪螺,流浪螺,你見過白令海的極夜,馬里亞納的深淵,是否還記得薩摩亞的小酒館...”
Ethan接著說:“那這個歌曲是Phoebe作的,我們都知道,但是如果突然有一天需要證明這是她的作品,有什麼紀錄呢?”
我立刻聯想到我身上的格子了:“就是這個布螺殼.譂?”
“對的!” Ethan略微得意,“她對這個作品的著作權,已經被紀錄在幾個月升週期前的一個區塊了。”
隨著Ethan的解釋,我明白了,這個東西叫NFT (non-fungible tokens,非同質化代幣),是最近特別火的一個東西,但是,類似Phoebe的這種藝術作品,好像在我周圍沒有多少啊,那Ethan他們在炒作的是什麼呢?
Ethan得意洋洋的告訴我,他早先是买入卖出一些别的小艺术品的NFT,走了几个交易之后,挣了不少钱,但是突然有一天他意识到,他也可以创作NFT,于是他创作并註冊了一個NFT,屬主是他,这样以后如果有人看上他的NFT,他就发大财了,我上下打量了一下他有點不可思議:“你出NFT?你創作了什麼藝術麼?”
“你不知道我多有錢..” Ethan慢悠悠的說。
“嗯,我只知道你很有錢,但是確實不知道你多有錢...” 我回答。
“哈哈哈,我的意思是,我註冊的NFT就是這句話 – 你不知道我有多有錢...” Ethan大笑起來。
“哈?這也能做NFT?” 我驚訝不已。
“當然行,萬物皆可NFT!” Ethan斬釘截鐵的回答。
他拿過Cloud發給大家的格子解碼器,給我看他的NFT的價格,標價是值0.2個BettyCoin。看我還在費勁的換算這個0.2可以換多少海藻來吃,Ethan打斷我說:“現在不急,這東西就是買了先放著,等到有人要買的時候就會漲價的,到時候幾千倍幾萬倍都有可能。”
隨著頁面往下翻,我發現他的臉色有點怪異,於是我湊過去看...一堆類似的NFT出現在他的NFT下方,分別做了標價,看來不少人已經開始依樣畫葫蘆這麼操作了:
“我知道你不知道我多有錢...” 標價 0.18 BettyCoin
“你知道我知道你不知道我多有錢...” 標價 0.187 BettyCoin
“你不知道我知道你不知道我多有錢...” 標價 0.175 BettyCoin
“我知道你不知道我知道你不知道我多有錢...” 標價 0.172 BettyCoin
“你知道我知道你不知道我知道你不知道我多有錢...” 標價 0.166 BettyCoin
….
我看了下,類似的以這個作為關鍵字的NFT列表已經有13頁了...
Ethan有點不耐煩了:“反正又不花幾個錢,創作一個先放著,萬一哪天有買家就發財了,對吧。”
#8 終章
一個月升的夜晚,我看到Jill 靠在窗前,望著遠處部落裡的燈火沈默不語,我爬過去問她:“怎麼了?”
Jill微微轉過頭,眼睛還是盯著遠方:“你有沒有聽說,Luna瘋了?”
“Luna?那個有一次號稱財富超過Ethan的那個Luna?” 我好像想起來是有這麼一個螺,當時Ethan還有點嫉妒的說她就是運氣好,買的幾種代幣包括她自己的 布螺殼.譂 剛好都是大漲的一下子就登到財富榜首位了。
“嗯,聽說她的Luna代幣價值清空了...” Jill 悠悠的說。
“啊!?” 雖然我從Ethan的NFT那個事情開始覺得這個布螺殼.譂 有點虛無飄渺,但是真實的投資資產變成烏有,確實有點震驚。
Jill轉過身,湊近我:“我們要不...退出吧?”
我想了想,我和Jill至少沒有把所有的資產都投入布螺殼.譂,所以其實隨時可以全身而退,風險倒是可控,但我確實也覺得這東西好像有點失去原本的意義了,我還在想著,就聽到Betty和Ethan在門口敲門了...
Ethan一進門,就大喊大叫:“那個Luna,留了一封遺書,就往龍蝦的棲息地去了!!”
龍蝦是我們的天敵,Luna如果進入了他們的獵場,幾乎再無生還的可能,Betty緊跟著解釋:“部落裡面已經派了3組螺分別走不同路徑去追她了,但是晚了1/4個月升週期,不知道能不能趕得上...”
Jill提醒我們:“我們要不要去找Cloud,看看有什麼辦法?”
於是我們四個螺就往Cloud家趕去,走到離Cloud家不遠的地方,就得知Luna被追回來了,但是已經徹底瘋了,一直在自言自語瘋狂的爬著圈子,最後只得被大家抓住綑起來,讓最大的螺駝著她回來...
Jill湊近我,堅定地小聲說:“我們這個週期就退出。” 我點點頭。
Cloud給我們開了門,讓我們進去圍成一圈,能看出他的表情有點震驚和無奈,他把酒囊分別遞給我們幾個,我們都默默的點點頭喝了一點,沈默了一會兒,Ethan忍不住還是開口說起來:“其實在第一天我就覺得Luna那個代幣不靠譜...”
Betty白了他一眼:“就你知道,你當時還問把Ethanum改用類似Luna的智能合約是否有可能呢...”
Ethan張張嘴巴想說什麼,又止住了。估計他也覺得理虧說不過Betty。
Cloud慢悠悠的說:“從第一天起,我是希望這個布螺殼.譂能帶來新的世界秩序,而且它也確實帶來了新的規則和方法,但是正如它的原始理念,這是一個去中心化的系統,一旦被啟動了,就無法由某個螺或者一個中心化的角色來影響它,它會按照各自的設計,或者說命運,繼續運行下去,不論結果是成功還是失敗...”
“那你覺得Luna的布螺殼.譂是一個失敗麼?是哪裡的設計出了問題麼?” 我有點好奇。
“從技術上來說,Luna的布螺殼.譂也是一個成功的去中心化的系統,但是在這個系統上承載的經濟體系,則是永遠無法單純靠技術解決的問題。” Cloud 望著我們慢慢的說,緊跟著,他又補充了一句:“我啟動了一個我無法控制的系統,有人說這是詛咒,也有人說這是未來,這就是去中心化的魅力,這個系統的是非,留給歷史來回答吧...”
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